Did that mean not sick enough? A relief in some ways, but it would still take a further six months of perseverance before I finally got access to some talking therapy. Delay after delay, I was eventually deemed not to fit the criteria. Mental health support is well reported as lacking in this country.

It would take a total snotty meltdown in the surgery to finally get them, and me, to see the past seven months had affected my mental health way more than the rest of my body. I am happy to report, by spring, my liver was proven healthy.Д«ut I couldnвЂ™t lift myself up from being poked and prodded, questioned and doubted. Despite the original visit being about something completely unconnected. I entered this year determined to get my blood levels right, all the while having to fend off medicals equally determined to blame it on my liver and lifestyle. Four months at the end of 2018 had me back and forth between doctors, hospital, and giving more vials of blood than a human should give away I am sure. I entered it not quite knowing whether my body was truly sick, or if it was my mind. This year, 2019, has not been without its own challenges. It is probably why I donвЂ™t put any expectations on a new year, not even a new decade or new century. They sat at extreme ends of the covert and open bullying scale, but it was a period which would see me wishing 2000 had never started. With that came a vulnerability which placed me slap bang in the clutches of not one but two manipulative people. Within a matter of weeks I would be assaulted at work, suffering a serious attack of a sexual nature and see my world come tumbling down. Others made their bitterness felt more openly. People I loved and trusted started to turn their backs. I started to feel the mood shift in camp. Soon into this new century my happy wheels came off. Except, unbeknown to me, not everyone was as pleased about my promotion. Marie was happier than she had been in a very long time. I was settled, confident, had a great life in and out of work. My job scope was being reassessed as team leader, with an appropriate pay rise. I was in a job I loved, working with an organisation I loved too. Who needs lights? Maybe we all played a big part in a few degrees of global warming that year.Дў000 marked a new century and it started out great for me. Are you kidding me? With all those fireworks, across the time zones, we watched as the world lit up the skies. The media tried to convince us all technology would fail and we would end up in darkness. I recall the big fuss around the millennium. New Year is also a turn of the decade, this time. The day we look back at the year we say goodbye to, and think about 2020, the year to come.

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